February 2011
50 posts
So I hung out with you today
I forgot what it feels like and I love the feeling to know that even though we’ve been through hella shit, nice to know I can always have a good time with you. Today was good, felt like old times.
January 2011
51 posts
Winterball 2011
I totally forgot to write about how my Winerball went. I know I’m a little late. And by the way it was on January 10 8, 2011.
Okay this is how my day went:
1.Woke up, turned my swag on
2.Picked up Jasmin, went to Jessica’s
3.Jessica made me an omelette full of mushrooms. I didn’t wanna tell her that i hated mushrooms, so I ate half and put the other half of them on...
To do list for today
You. wut?
Update Ipod
Clean room
Learn Somebody To Love
Groom myself
Groom Panda
Wash the dishes
Mop the living room
Your mom. wut?
I was just thinking of..
I was just thinking of asking this guy to be my Valentine. But I don’t know how to do it and if I’m really gonna do it or not. I was gonna make him a really big card, have him walk to his locker or something. OR OR OR, put in his is locker, no that’s weird. LOL. well I don’t know yet. and I’m getting way head of myself right now. Heheh.
No love life.
story of my life. man.
It's this feeling that gets to me a lot.
It’s like problem after problem. I don’t know if I can handle it anymore. And just when I think I’m done, the feeling comes back and then I get completely destructive. I just don’t show it. Sometimes it gets tiring, “putting up a face”, I mean. Yeah, everything gets tiring but this specifically. I’m just tired of having to try so hard not to break down at...
Grody Brody
So here’s a story:
I’m just chilling on my futon, watching T.V, and taking a break. And i see my dog, Panda, jump on up. I’m sitting here, doing my thing and all of a sudden I hear a, “CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP -chunk- CHOMP”, I look over to her and she’s eating something I do not know about. I’m thinking, “Hmm maybe I should check what it is”, being...
I laugh of the thought of me ever having a 'normal...
Those nights
I hate those nights where you just toss and turn in bed but you still can’t sleep. You do everything you can to try but nothing works. It’s even worse when you’re tired as fuck. ):
Shihan on Def Poetry Jam
“I even be fantasizing about walking out on a green light just dying to get hit by a car just so I could lose my memory get transported to some third world country just to get treated then somehow meet up again with you so that could fall in love with you in a different language just to see if it still feels the same type love. I want a love that’s as unexplainable as she is”
One Mic Stand | San Francisco | 02.13
thugnasty-:
ayojackzilla:
mosaek:
jeffbernat:
Finally found a way to make it out there from LA.
Not sure if I’ll perform. I really just wanna watch the fam and enjoy that night..
BUT I’LL BE THERE! :)
I’m there
Anyone down to come out with me? All in Seriousness.
An event I’m definitely making an effort to go to. Anyone down?
omgomgomogmogmogmomg.
I love finals. lulz
First day:
Math
Spanish
WHO READY. WE READY. (: Not. ):
Goood Monday
How I Met Your Mother
90210
Gossip Girl
Pretty Little Liars
Why am I so obsessed with these shows..omg. <3333
LOLOL. FUCK WHAT DO I DO NOW?
AlvinLin: u have a tumblr? :O
michelleaahchu: nope! LOL
If people at school
started reading my Tumblr more. omg. They’d figure out how fucking sad I am all the time. LULZ. -awkward turtle-
HEALTH
ENGLISH
E SCI
I've been having the strangest dreams lately.
3 tags
Freaking Brandon
michelleaahchu: and he doesnt like to talk about his problems either
BrandonChu: maybe you should tell him your problems first so he feels comfortable
michelleaahchu: so my troubles make you feel good?!?!?!?1
michelleaahchu: what are you trying to say
BrandonChu: im not saying that!
michelleaahchu: WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SYA
michelleaahchu: ?!?!
michelleaahchu: THAT YOU HATE ME!!?!?!?!? (:
BrandonChu: NO.
BrandonChu: I love you
michelleaahchu: nope nope nope ):
michelleaahchu: brb ima cry now.
michelleaahchu: WAHH ):
BrandonChu: ):
michelleaahchu: heheh
BrandonChu: trynna ask for a divorce now?!
michelleaahchu: noooooooo ):<
michelleaahchu: I keep telling you
michelleaahchu: NEVER
BrandonChu: you might change your mind !
michelleaahchu: nope
michelleaahchu: NEVER
BrandonChu: lies!
michelleaahchu: lies? by big bang? the song?
michelleaahchu: i love that song
BrandonChu: ...................
michelleaahchu: but whats it gotta do with this conversation?
I just want to leave and never look back.
Who wants to cut tomorrow and just go to the park or roam the streets.
I DO! I DO!
I'm a dead girl residing in a living girl's body.
Honestly, I’ve been wondering who would actually miss me if I died. Honestly, I think not a lot. I’ve been thinking why am I here, maybe that’s why I’ve been cutting class lately. I’m just another person.
I'm a dead girl residing in a living girl's body.
When Ke$ha says "Glitter on my eyes" everytime I...
And I’m just like way to fool me again Ke$ha….way to fool me again…
I just hope I’m not the only one…
I feel like no one understands me
I feel like people don’t know what I’m going through
I feel like asking me if I’m okay when clearly I’m sad is stupid
I feel like friendships as I know it are falling apart
I feel like I have no sympathy for others. And sometimes I feel bad but most of the times I don’t.
I feel selfish, greedy, bitchy.
At least when I shower, I'm sure that no one will...
Damn writers block
I hate when I know what I want to say but I just can’t seem to find the right words
Just this thing.
KevinKam: so how you been?
michelleaahchu: Honestly? Terrible. Do I wanna talk about it? Nope. Am I okay? Not really but if you ask I'm gonna say fine
What happened
This past few months have been fucking hectic for me. And I kept a lot of it in until this week. I don’t know why but this time I was especially weak. One simple thing that happened triggered all these emotions I held back. I’ve been crying every day for the past 6 days. And I’m wondering where all these feelings are coming from and I feel like a fucking pussy
All these tears and you aren't even worth it.
Lately3
I haven’t been giving a fuck. I have been feeling out of place. I have been faking a lot. I’m fine. Just tired. Just calm. All. fucking. lies. Sometimes I just want people to say “No seriously, tell me what’s wrong.”
HAH. I fucking laugh at your weakness
-nateumagat:
When you let someone be the source of your hapiness, you have to remember that that same person can be the source of your sadness, anger, frustration, stress.
I don't wanna sound greedy
But why are you trying to take all my friends away? They were my getaway and it feels as if you’re trying to take them away from me. You said you were to cool to hang out with ____ but at the same time you are talking and acting all buddy buddy with them? Okay.
I have a hive on my wrist in the shape of a heart.
LOL. IS THIS A SIGN?!?!!?
ohlord I am just dying.......
NikkiSu (9:23:26 PM): MICHELLE NikkiSu (9:23:26 PM): DUDE michelleaahchu (9:23:40 PM): NIKKI michelleaahchu (9:23:41 PM): WHAT NikkiSu (9:23:49 PM): andrew said NikkiSu (9:23:52 PM): i was freaking on you NikkiSu (9:23:53 PM): T_T NikkiSu (9:24:01 PM): i wasn’t right? LOL michelleaahchu (9:24:11 PM): LOLOL…no i dont think so..last night was fucking crazy michelleaahchu (9:24:16 PM):...
Lately2
I’m forgetting what’s important and what’s not. I need to get my goals and morals straight before I do anything else to ruin my future. I’m starting to realize to think before I do. I just hope I stay to my word..
Lately
My writing has been coming from past experiences, not what I feel right now. My writing has been filled with emptiness, not live feelings. It sucks.
Sigh
I just realized that I don’t need you in my life. You were a friend. Friends support each other; for the past few months you have not been a good friend to me. I was there for you through a lot and you talk shit about me? I talked to you when you needed someone to be there. I am metaphorically speaking when I say I’m erasing you out of “My loved ones” list.
Hi? Remember me?
The girl that spent forever on you. The girl that waited for you. The girl that was there for you. The girl that me you laugh on your saddest days. What makes her more special than me?
Review of my day?!!?
Got hives
Stomach ache
Left my phone at my grandma’s
Running too much
Headache
My toe hurts
My legs hurt
What can I say? I live an exciting life -_-
Dissapearing
I feels like I’m slipping from everything and everyone. At night when I look back at my day, it sounds so boring. I don’t know how to write anymore. I don’t knowwhat to write about anymore. I’m slipping from society. I’m pretty much numb all the time. I have no feelings. I rarely have sympathy. Is this a bad thing? I wouldn’t know. I feel like it’s not a...
"1 universe, 9 planets, 204 countries, 809...
1 universe, 9 planets, 204 countries, 809 islands, 7 seas, and I had to meet you.
-_-
Creations.
While we’re up webcamming til’ 3 a.m, I just wanna tell you, “Go to sleep babe, you’re tired.” but I can’t call you babe. I can’t call you anything special.
School..
I don’t wanna go back yet. I need a longer break. From school, the people, the drama. It’s too much work for me. All this stress was gone and then now, I have all this worry again. It’s too much.
School..
I don’t wanna go back yet. I need a longer break. From school, the people, the drama. It’s too much work for me. All this stress was gone and then now, I have all this worry again. It’s too much.
Staying up
When I try to sleep, sometimes I have too much thoughts in my head. It usually leads to bad things.