December 2010
53 posts
He is not high.
Raymond: Panda looks Chinese.
Panda is our dog.
How
I don’t know how to comfort people sometimes. I don’t know what to say, I just hope that telling them I am here to listen and I promise I won’t tell anyone gives them at least a little comfort. For me, just having someone’s presence helps, as long as I know they’re there for me is enough comfort for me until…
I'M HOME
And it is wonderful. heheh. My body so sore.
I went tubing today. omq. My family has a video of me going down the hill screaming.
I also ran into a pole.
YAY. ^_^ /sarcasm
LOL @ MY OLD POST
Whats Taupe?! I meant Tahoe(:
I went snowboarding today. ahh so much work
I am currently
in taupe and it’s amazingly cold. I’ll be back on Tuesday and I am so gonna learn how to snowboard by the time we leave(:
Just scared
That this is gonna happen again. It’s this never ending cycle.
You meet a guy
You get to know him
You guys talk non stop
You guys stop talking all of a sudden
It’s just happened too many times.
Guys. Serious question. LA or Lake Tahoe?
I'm starting to fall for the typical guy again.
sweet talks, makes jokes, it feels like a connection
but in the end, he always leaves before we can turn it into anything
He is so high right now. LOLOL.
His mom: CLEAN YOUR ROOM. -yell yell yell yell-
Him: So can i get my noodles?
LOLOLOL.
Never thought of it this way.
Me: I hate seeing happy couples.
Jasmin: I hate seeing happy singles.
...
The worst part of
the whole heartbreak for me that it was so uncalled for. I mean, one minute you were next to me. Then all I saw was the blurry image of you walking out of my life.
Every sound you make when you're suppose be quiet...
Currently.
Laying outside on the balcony with a sleeping bag <3
Itunes on.
Thinking my ass of in the cold
Looking up
When I'm mad
I hate it when I’m mad and I act on instinct. I don’t think before I do things. And when I do that, I regret it later. That’s a lesson I will probably never learn.
Nice hat(:
Good way of being blunt?
Is there such thing? I was in my room reading @jeenaFILIPINA’s post about how being so blunt that people hate her for it. First thought was, “I like people who are blunt and straight forward.” Then I thought I like the nice blunt though. But is there a good way of being blunt?
Hanging around in my room.
I just like to put on a big t shirt without a bra with just boyshort undies on. It feels so good. Letting yours boobs breath; having your legs out of those bad ass skinny jeans.
Why bother trying if it's not gonna get me...
Feelings.
I hate when I feel nothing. Like sortof numb. It’s not sadness or happiness. I would honestly like to feel sad than rather nothing at all. Then I wouldn’t be so confused.
Nothing's gonna happen, so why do I keep trying so...
Wasting time
It feels like I’m just here to waste time. Here in such a small place like Castro Valley. At school, at home, everywhere I pass. I’ve been wondering why am I wasting my time trying when there’s no use of any of it. I’m not getting anywhere so why bother. It’s just why do I keep on trying to make things better when obviously I’m just wasting my efforts and...
One of those nights
It’s one of those nights where I just feel hella lonely. I just wanna be in bed with someone. To sleep on their chest, to just talk with while we are snuggling. Where his chest is more comfortable than the pillow. A place where I can feel safe and trust someone and just let things out. I just wanna be with him right now and just sit and do nothing. Talk about shit. Laugh about shit. Where I...
Man.
I hate waking up to a bad ass headache and a sore body. hurts so bad. And I just lay there, waiting for it to go away but it doesn’t. And it’s like every time I move my head, something is smashing against my head on the inside. HURTS SO BAD.
I hate partying sad.
Goes like this.
It seems like I just can’t have a break anymore. Problems just constantly show up in my life. I’m just tired of hiding everything. Why can’t everything be okay for once? Like EVERYTHING. It’s like, if it’s not a school problem, it’s a friends problem. If it’s not a friend’s problem, it’s a family problem. I’s this cycle bullshit have to...
I could careless about you.
Honestly, I don’t get why everyone’s being so nice to you. You think you’re hella cool and you act hella hard. Uhm no buddy. Learn how to respect others and stop acting you like you own the place. Now that you and her are over, I don’t have a reason to put up with you so I’ll just ignore your stinky butthole.
It's gonna happen.
I keep on telling myself to just wait, it’s gonna get better but the thing is I’m tired of waiting.
I just feel like I don't belong anymore.
I don’t belong at school, at home. I’ve been feeling really distant from everyone. Sometimes it would be nice to have some time to myself but I should really get back out to the world. I’m just afraid they won’t accept me again.
Har har. This guy(:
Alvin Chan: I'm too cool for you
Me: HA. You are just SO funny.
Alvin Chan: Yeah, I am funny but what does it have to do with what I said before? (:
OH. YOU THINK YOU'RE SO CLEVER. Hahaha.
So I have a feeling this is gonna be a good week.
Let’s hope I don’t jinx it.
Question.
Why does it take so little for a person to tear someone down with the ugliest sentences ever? “You’re so ugly”, “You’re so fat”. But why does it take so much for people to build even the slightest confidence?
Know what grinds my gears?
When you work so hard to solve a problem. And right after that one you barely stop to catch your breath and another problem just falls on to your lap. It seems to be saying, “HAHA. BITCH TAKE THAT!” It’s this constant cycle of never ending issues.
I've noticed
When I’m mad you can hear the sharpness in my voice. You don’t even wanna mess with me when you hear that tone. I will blow off on you.
All of a sudden I feel like crying.
fuck. I can’t let this get to me. I can’t let this get to me. I can’t let this get to me.
Stop.
I don’t want to fight anymore. I just want to get this over with. Why are we even arguing. I’m tired of all of this can we just..
Oh you seem sick, have an extra dose of shut the...
My dad's advice on what to do if youlre about to...
dad: if you're ever in a situation on getting raped. you know what you do? literally shit yourself. cause that's a instant turn off, you can wipe yourself later.
brother: I nearly damn shit ma self.
Eeeeep ^_^
Winterball. Winterball. Winterball.
Today I got asked to Winterball by a friend(x Apparently everyone knew except for me. Hahaha. It was very adorable of him. My friend Jasmin told me to stay with her the whole lunch so I was like “whattheheck….?!…kay?..” And then Alvin (the VERY special guy who gets to go with me) (justkidding. HA.) said
-In the cafeteria-
Alvin: Guys, let’s go to my locker...
Sometimes
I just think about running away to Tokyo or England. Sometimes I just think anywhere is better than here. ‘Sometimes’ has turned into lately and everyday. I just don’t know what to do and I think I would be better off without everyone here. But the people that care about me are to die for and I just don’t know what to do without them. I wish I could bring them with me and...
One thought lead to another and all of a sudden, I...
Just some thoughts
Have you ever had a thought and then after that one it leads to another and another and somehow even though it seems like it doesn’t connect at all, somehow it does like Facebook friends? Like, “HOW THE FUCK IS THIS PERSON FRIENDS WITH THIS PERSON?!”
Has this occurred to you?
That I actually care about you and I’m not just trying to play a game with you? That this “game” that you’re talking about is just you being stupid?
I realized
that I use meanness as a mechanism to get closer to people. Sigh. I wish I could change that.
GUYS. WHAT SEASON IS IT?
A: Winter. Asking girls to Winterball.
FOREVER. ALONE. )”:
Girls.
When girls talk, they don’t stop. It’s like we girls have infinite amount of feelings to talk about. We paraphrase what we say. We make metaphors also. Examples: He’s a museum. It’s quiet but sometimes the quiet ones screams the loudest. We want feedback from every single possible way. We want opinions of what they think of the situation, what the person should do,...
Have you ever
Benn so thankful for the friends you have? Right now I feel that way and it feels nice. I mean, it feels really good to know I have friends like this. I know they won’t ever intentionally hurt me, well hopefully.